It's been awhile...

Alright, I know, there's sucky. .and then below that, past loser and dweeb, is me. I totally ditched blogging, and I'm not entirely sure I'm back even now. However, here is a new post to get all you peeps updated on what's been going on.

Starting with......... I lost my job. Around the middle of August, they closed my office, and two other offices in the same week - putting many people out of work. So, basically since then I disappeared from my condo living for about 10 days - doing family stuff and friend stuff. Then, reluctantly, I returned home. I only use that word because frankly, I think I regressed into what it was like being 21 and living at home and hanging out with my Mom. I miss her a lot, it's the one thing that kinda puts a downer on living 2hrs away.. but otherwise, once I actually got back into my condo I felt a lot better - a lot more like myself, funny enough.

I started my "Official" job hunting last week Monday, and although I was attending seminars from a Market Readiness Service place.. it wasn't about looking for a job, it was about HOW to look for one. So, basically that has been my focus since then. I have my first interview tomorrow - doing a job very similar to the one I had previously been doing. Wish me luck!

As for other news, there isn't much. I've put all the boys on hold - they interest me little now that there's this huge other thing going on in my life. I don't have time to get into any type of relationship until I get myself settled back into some type of groove. I've also set up daily goals for myself - mostly to keep SOME kind of structure around. (It's very difficult to be without a job.. you'd think it would be great, like a uber vacation - it's not.) So, daily goals are: 1hr of exercise, at least 1 personal goal (this could be anything, going to the bank, finishing something I was meaning to do for awhile, going shopping, etc.) and 2-4hrs dedicated to some type of job searching/applying/resumes, etc. So far, I'm not doing too bad. The exercise is beginning to feel like a bit too much... but, it's not even noon yet today and I have 50mins done.


Finally, I just wanted to share a picture with you all that I created for one my of RP characters... I know most of you aren't into that whole RP scene... but.. still. I enjoy the picture and therefore felt the need to post it here. Take a look! (To see it larger, just click on it.)

Alright, that's it for me, miss you all and I'll try to catch up on blogs the SECOND I find some motivation.. gah....

~Huggers and all that jazz~

Updated 101 Things in 1001 Days.

For those of you who used to visit my old blog - you'll remember the 101 Things in 1001 Days list that I wrote up - I thought I would move it over here as Mishy suggested to me yesterday while we were at Wonderland. So, below I've taken all the things off the list that still need to be completed. I'm just under half way done the list - though, I'm running outta time quickly!! The list was originally posted on March 15/06 - So I only have 470 days left to complete the tasks below - eepp, that's less than half of the time.

1) Update my website, because it needs it badly.
2) Better my skillz in Photoshop.
3) Learn a new computer program.
4) Attend a LAN.
5) Change the layout on Luca's pages.
6) Fly somewhere, anywhere.
7) Take a course to further my education.
8) Understand and maintain my finances correctly and without going into debt!
9) Get along with my sister better, for an extended period of time.
10) Try not to be so opinionated...
11) Learn to shoot a gun.
12) Go painballing.
13) Write a story or chronicle.
14) Play video games with someone - and win.
15) Cook dinner, and invite my family over to my place to eat.
16) Cook dinner, and invite 'the Girls' to my place in Cambridge.
17) Be in a serious relationship, or happy not being in one at all.
18) Get a new computer.
19) Rollerblade, regularly.
20) Go to Ottawa.
21) ... and eat a Beaver Tail.
22) Go on a trip somewhere, anywhere.
23) Build something.. out of wood, or metal or something like that.
24) Try painting again, until I create an art piece I'd hang up in my home.
25) Learn how to drive a motorcycle.
26) Do Karaoke.
27) Learn how to play an instrument.
28) Do some kind of Volunteer work.
29) Buy a new video game, and beat it.
30) Manage to keep 2-3 months of income in my savings for 'emergencies'.
31) Build a computer, or at least add hardware to one.
32) Go on a sail boat.
33) Learn how to drive Standard.
34) Get back into Photography.
35) Go to a preformance. (Musical/Paly/Concert, doesn't matter.)
36) Be more involved/interested in the world around me.
37) Actually vote.
38) Decorate my first Christmas Tree in my own place.
39) Buy something from a sex shop.
40) Rent porn.
41) Try snowboarding.
42) Oh oh! Get drunk and have sex while watching porn!
43) Go someplace to see fireworks. (it's been a few years)
44) Go to the beach.
45) Take a train.
46) Get over my fear of spiders.
47) Go jogging.
48) Go to the drive-in to see a flick.
49) Go fishing.
50) Go sleding.
51) Sew this years snowman on the the Christimas Tree Skirt.
52) Find a new interest.
53) Do a walkathon, swimathon, something athon.
54) Use my MP3 player & its software for what it's made for... music.
55) Learn how to code.
56) Give blood.

Is this an interrogation?

I had a date on Saturday with Rock. And it confirmed my early comments about how I really didn't feel anything between us, even though we had stuff in common. I'm not sure what was so off about the date, it just wasn't all that fun. Nothing really bad happened (which would have made a great blog story) but nothing exciting did either. He came over, we watched a movie, ate pizza and wings and then he left after we talked awhile. I'm thinking I'm going to call it quits because I don't even have the slightest interest in him romantically.

Further to that, he asks a lot of questions... I mean, like a 5yr old nagging you.. heh. Examples? Sure! Why not. He asked things such as...

Rock: "Do you have your own air conditioner in here?"
Me: "Yep, I do."
Rock: "Cool, have you ever made it freezing in here?"
Me: ~blink~ "Have I ever... no? It doesn't get freezing in here usually, just comfortable. My parents place however gets really cold, I think it's because this is a condo and they live in a house.." (Rock looking around, nodding, not really paying attention.)
Rock: "Did you want to make it freezing?"
Me: ~pauses to think and try to figure out hidden message here..~ "Are you hot?"
Rock: "Yeah."
Me: "OH! Ok, yeah sure, I can turn it down a few degrees... "
Rock: "I don't want to force you to turn it down, only do it if you're hot...."

Rock: "Did you read all those books? So you're like a reader?"
Me: "Not really, I mean, I read on occasion."
Rock: "I'd say you're a reader..."
Me: "Ok, well I guess compared to someone who never reads, I'm a reader..."

Rock: "Did you put that eyeliner on yourself?"
Me: ~Thinking, why, does it look bad?~ "Yes..."
Rock: "Did you do it because of the colour of your eyes?"
Me: "I guess.....?"

No seriously guys, he asked me everything under the sun. Can I go out on your balcony? Can I look in your fridge? Are your parents proud of you for buying this place all on your own? Can I go wash my hands? You have sprinklers in your place? How do you find the building treats you? Can I look in your closet? Does your couch clean up easily? Etc. etc. etc. It just went on and on. Sometimes he wouldn't ask, and just did.

So, that's the scoop on that. I also met a really great guy at the bar that does magic, he's a bit younger, but we had a lot of the same interests.. so far, no call from him. Apparently he is just getting out of a long term relationship - so my chances don't look good. (sad)

Anyway, have a great one!
Rebecca ~

Oh, Yawn! I'm so tired this morning.

I slept in a bit this morning, I think I'm running myself a little too thin lately - and it's time for a couple early nights to bed to really pack away the sleeping hours, you know? It's funny, because it's so nice to be busy and running around like a chicken, but on the flip side I miss just coming home, having dinner and getting into a bath and relaxing. However, that's boring, and then I would have nothing to Blog about!!

Thanks for your comments everyone about my dating and and weight - I'm happy with both right now, things are going pretty much as planned. I still haven't seen either Rock or Lion yet - however, that's because between the three of us - no one has any time. Lion has worked all week, at both his jobs. Rock has been working non-stop also because it's month end for him. Rock did however call me last night while I was out and left me a message saying he would like to get together next week if we could find the time. Lion keeps messaging me when I'm not at the computer, so I called him late last night and the poor guy sounded so tired. It was nearly midnight (I only called cause he had messaged me a few minutes prior) and he was crashing b/c he had just gotten home from work and needed to be up in 6hrs to do it again. So, we'll see when I see him next.

As for "love bite" details.. turns out that Lion is a bit of a bitter, or maybe it was my fault, either way before I knew it I had marks all over my neck - which are still slowly fading. I'm not complaining, because it was nice to see such passion - my only request is maybe not so high because I don't have anything to cover it. (However, I did purchase my very first turtle neck sweater thingy last night, so I'm prepared for a next time - just incase. ~laughs)

Gah, there's so much to tell everyone, ok, I'll tell you quickly about Tuesday night. GOO called me up, she's on vacation, and said to get ready that I was coming out for a drink. Normally, I'd just say no, however - it was one drink and as she pointed out: "You're 26, you can handle it." So, I got myself spruced up a little bit and off I went - first we went to some new place that we had heard of, turns out it's closed all but 2 nights a week... so that didn't work. Instead, we headed over to Dooleys. We're sitting at the bar, talking, drinking our drinks (I had one called "pornstar" and it tastes exactly like blue freezey which makes it very dangerous.) when she suddenly goes "Oh, look at this". When she said it, I thought she was checking out some guy so as I look over my shoulder I see movement of someone in an orange shirt, but they've already moved past my line of sight so I turn around to look the other way and who do you think it was??? GOO's ex-husband (separated)! I couldn't believe it, only because like 20mins earlier GOO was telling me about how they had spent the whole day with their daughter and he had said he was out with the guys. Apparently not, unless by "guys" he meant 'blond girl I'm on a date with....' So, it was pretty uncomfortable. We left shortly after that and as we passed where they were playing pool GOO stopped to talk about their daughter for a couple seconds and the Blond girl comes over to me and says "This is a little akward for me..." to which I responded "It's a little awkward for me too, and I'm not dating either of them!" She didn't laugh, I did.. heh.

Anyway, now I have to get going, 45 minutes and I need to be at work! Gah. Have a great one.

Rebecca ~

July is over?!!!

Alright, how about some weight talk first?
From the beginning of the month, to the end of the month I've lost exactly 6lbs. Now, I was up at the beginning of the month because of my Sisters wedding - but still, I'm down. Heh. I'm still not into One-derland, but close. Hopefully this next month I'll see 1s instead of 2s.. fingers crossed. According to my record keeping, I exercised a total of 7 days this month, which really isn't good I guess, since it should be like 2 - 3 times/week which would mean I should have gotten 12 exercises in or something close to that... but still.. that's like 58% to goal if I use those numbers for exercising anyway. Blah. I'll try harder this month.

Life is busy, my days are just swamped with work at my job, which is good I guess because it keeps me busy and allows me overtime - which I need HORRIBLY bad. Ok ok, onto the juicy stuff. I've decided to watch what I type a bit, only because I don't want anything to be said that shouldn't be.. ya know?

I met for a date with Rock this past Friday - it wasn't anything too big, just coffee at Williams - but it was good conversation and he's one of those guys you look at and just think "this is a very kind person" do you know what I mean? His eyes just seemed.. well.. even though the word sounds silly, "kind". We have a lot in common, same interests and such and he lives in town. So, I'm hoping we can go out again to get to know eachother better - I"m not sure how attracted to him yet though. I think if anything does develope between the two of us it will have to grow over time, you know?

AND I also met The Lion, on the Saturday after. I hadn't planned on meeting him, but it all just sorta turned out that way and I have to tell you - I was terrified. I don't know what it was, I guess because we kinda had a few deep conversations on the phone so there was more to expect there? I don't know. But.. it went really well. I have NO clue if what happened will turn into something more relationshipy or not, but all I can do is sit back and see. There's so much to tell here, I just don't think it's good to kiss and tell.. too much, anyway. Lets just say though, that there was some action, and the marks are still viable today - 3 days later. ~laughs~ Is that enough detail to give the gist of things? If not, lemme know and I'll think of something more to say. I'm waiting now to see if/when this boy wants to get together again.

Alright, can you believe it? I'm out there, I'm dating, I'm loosing weight and I'm actually DOING something with my life for once.. how strange for me. ~laughs~ I'll try to visit everyones Blogs soon, miss you all!

Rebecca ~